dearest,

It's like a jar full of fudge,
borderlines of escapism,
something

I really really missed.


I dont know how love feels anymore, but I hope it fells like this.

Because it is so surreal,
just like old british romance movies,
details from all of them in these little
moments
(when it snowed and he tried to hold my hand;
and when we lay there listening to Mogwai
and smoked hash
and I still was so pretty)



By the way have you seen movie An Education? It has the same actress that was in Juno.
It was a beautiful one.

I think I told you that me and Peter broke up.

Hm,

I can feel my freedom.

Oh and I met Daniel,
how could I forget, he's the whole point of this nonsense.

He reminded me who I was
and I feel so fucking good.




Even though my best friends brother hates me. Quite funny, quite funny that I don't care, not a single bit because once in my lifetime I feel some-thing. 




And sex is amazing too.






Yours
Euphoria Destruct-

hm

"Cause' it's so fucking beautiful"

I can't believe in the things that are happening to me.
I can't grasp the idea of someone actually wanting me, because it's beautiful.

There's too much dangerous games going on,
too much bad things that just feel so so good.

Can't believe it's Christmas next week.
So upsetting.

I wish I could just cancel it.
Make everything so much easier

My overdraft unexcistant.

Damn it.


I think I fell in love again.

Lust is such a dangerous thing.



(Short of air, that's just too erotic.
My life is just too erotic.
I need some escapism.

I need some silence)




And still his jewellers hands!
Oh please touch me,
I cant stand this anymore.

I need to disappear.

I need to -